How did this happen? In a matter of just under 2 years, our lives have changed completely.
We are a family. We have this little boy, and he is so incredbily magical. We are in a routine, we know what he likes and does not like. We have a frame of reference that we can refer back to when we are reveiwing his facial expressions, his giggles, his cries. We know that he likes to go outside and he will be very content with a mini vanilla cone from DQ. This is the most amazing thing, how we just fold into the groove of this new life, as if it was always there, waiting for us to slip our foot in.
We went for a walk yesterday with Aunt Micki, Aunt Annie, Javier and Misty. We walked to downtown Ferndale, talked about life, about silly stuff and about serious stuff. We saw people who used to be in our friendship circle and we discovered that Just for Us has a lot of sexual content for a 2 year old! Watching Micki and Annie taking Javier on his first walk reminded me how far Steph and I have come. How many firsts we have already passed and how we have already established a rhythm with our son. Watching Steph hold him and comfort him from a distance is just about the most beautiful vision I have ever seen. It is breathtaking to realize how much she loves him. She puts so much time and effort into loving him and still has a heart that overflows with love for me. How does that happen? Is the love we have in our hearts infinite? Are we capable of loving fully, as many as we choose?
The walk was fun, and I missed our friend Janice, she would have totally got the peanut buster parfait which would have encouraged me to get something bigger than, a plain old vanilla cone with sprinkles. I really wanted the hot fudge sundae with nuts and a cherry but nobody else was getting anything...... SO... What could I do?
For today, I am delighted that I have this family, this rhythm and the opportunity to get a peanut buster parfait, even if I choose the vanilla cone.
So much love...
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I still cannot believe that Javier is here! I look at him and he is just so precious and amazing already! I look forward to him growing and knowing his Aunties! Thanks for the walk! It was nice to get out and enjoy the wonderful weather we had yesterday!
yeah, and i would have totally gotten the peanut butter parfait!! ...last night i had to improvise and have coconut cokies with peanut butter. surprisingly, they taste like nutter butters. we do what we can. : ) i love your reflections...and learn from you. love, j
If I hadn't gained 40 lbs of sympathy weight you know I would have gotten the super fudge sundae with you! Next time lets share! Lets do those walks at least once a month. I love to bond with you and Steph and little boy. It's such a great feeling to have you three as part of our family. I missed Janice, too.
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