Anniversary

Steph and I had our 14 year anniversary on July 10th. Wow, I cannot believe it has already been 14 years, nor can I believe that I am 40. I am so lucky to have her. She is the silver lining. Whenever my life seems to be spinning out of control, I always look to her for guidance, support and love. We met with some much needed help from beyond. We both believe that the angels were at work, we were so dysfunctional and so needy. Well i was more needy than she was, but we were both dysfunctional. Each of us had a lot of baggage and we have a ton of stuff to learn about each other. The first day I ever heard her voice, I knew she was the one. I knew I had found my true love. I feel like she fits me so well that when there is ever a thought of her not being in my life, I ache all over. I have spent the last 14 years breathing her in at night, gazing at her in the morning light, and touching he soft petal skin. There have been times when our fights have put so much distance between us that we both felt like we were on the edge of a cliff with the soil crumbling beneath us. There have been times when we have felt so connected that we felt like we were one person. She knows what I think, what I feel how I see the world, how I fit into the world, and what I like on my garden burgers. She will always know me better than anyone else because I am totally authentic with her. My love for her is intense and powerful. I married her 4 years ago on our 10year anniversary and i felt different as soon as the ceremony was a thought. I remember feeling very nervous and excited and hopeful and it was so funny to me because we were already together for 10 years, but it was different. Having all of our family and friends there, and we were making our commitment in front f all of them Suddenly it felt very serious. Once we drove home from Canada, we were no longer legally married, but in our hearts and in our relationship we are married and will be forever. Stephanie and I have always known we would be together forever, we have never given up on each other and we have never tried to live by anyone else's expectations. We live this life together so well. Some day, long from now, I will think back to the first time I ever heard her voice and I will relive those moments. All of them.